Believing the Unbelievable

Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

"And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord." Luke 1:45 (KJV)

I'm blogging tonight on account of my best friend, Andrea. I was just not in the mood yesterday and tonight I don't feel like saying anything. I think I just want to have a nice quiet pity party all by myself. Is that okay sometimes? To not always be happy and smiling and everything coming up roses?

So I love this verse and I got the title of this blog from a chapter out of a book I'm reading by Michelle McKinney Hammond, How to be Blessed and Highly Favored. In the first chapter of Luke, Mary has just been told she will carry the Almighty God's son and be His mother. And she believed what she was told and without hesitation she praised God for what He told her. How many of us doubt the little things God tells us about our life? I know I'm guilty of it or I maul it over in my mind so much it has been 'handled' too much to even recognize what it was I told to begin with. Am I making any sense to anyone? What I'm trying to say is that as children of God we have GOT to believe Him who tells us the truth and stop trying to recreate our own truth.

Recently God truly blessed my heart with some information and even now when I laugh about it, God wants to tease me into being 'doubting Sarah' (from the Old Testament) but I assure Him I am in wonder and awe much like Mary was about her news. No my news is not that I'm pregnant but my news is from God and certainly can be thought of as truly unbelievable but I believe the One who told me, completely. I trust the Lord knows what He is doing and I'm not going to get in His way or doubt Him anymore.

I'm getting ready to change the subject of this blog, again. It's my adult ADHD everything will be fine. Changing stuff up helps my mind with all its swirling ideas! lol Anyway, it may take me a week or two to decide on what I'm doing but it's okay. Hey here's a funny one, I just picked up the book titled God Will Make a Way What To Do When You Don't Know What To Do. Maybe there's a few cool ideas inside those pages. We'll see. For those you who truly do care about me, I'm okay. I miss my children tremendously but I am being obedient to God with the choices I've made. I just have feelings and emotions like everyone else in the world and I can't pretend that I'm always happy and doing fine. God has sustained me through this tragedy and He will continue to do so. I'm healing from a lifetime of missed moments with my mother so there is a flip side to this and that is a nice blessing in my life. She is so much fun and she makes me laugh so hard sometimes I can't make it to the bathroom!!!! TMI My mom is the best and God is blessing us with our time together. She even misses me when I come to McKenzie to visit my children and family. Other than that I'm believing God for everything He is going to do in my life. He is so amazing how He works our life's pain out for the best in His plan.