God's Lap

Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

The Psalmist beautifully tells of the greatness of God and the lengths He goes to just to protect what is His. Psalm 48:14 "For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end."

My best friend Sunshine and me went for a drive early this morning. I can't sleep and it may be b/c the anesthesia today was amazing! We went to my favorite star gazing spot. I use to take my best friend from high school there and we'd sit for hours just talking. I've even taken some friends with me as we talked on the phone and saw shooting stars together. It's out past where I grew up on Wood hill and it is dark with no street lights or security lights to dim the night sky. The airport's water tower beacon flashes in the distance but it just puts a sort of nostalgia in the air as you gaze up at the millions of bright and some dimly lit balls of fire. I am amazed each time I look at how many stars there are that God put each one in place and named them! I want Him to tell me all their names when I get to heaven b/c what I'm about to share with you is one of the coolest things I do for myself.

There have been times in my life when the pain was too much and the crying would not stop and no one, not even a hug from the person who mattered most to me at the time, could heal what I was dealing with. It was in those moments (and it happened ALOT as a teenager) that I would picture crawling up into God's lap and just laying there in His arms. Never having to say a word or explain anything or tell Him how I felt. I knew that He already knew and He already had my solution wrapped up but I had to exhaust myself to understanding that He was all I needed. I could picture Him wiping my tears away from my face, telling me that He had something VERY special to show me, and then patiently giving me the time I needed to just let it all out and be done with it (it being the pain and crying).

Have you ever been so upset you could hardly breathe b/c you were crying so much? Snot probably hanging from your nose, I know that's gross but we have to paint the picture a little bit. Pain is nasty sometimes; it is tough to deal with the struggles and pain of this life! But I have always been so grateful to have a Savior and a heavenly Father who wants me to come to them when it hurts a little bit and when it hurts a whole lot! I picture myself smiling through all the tears and emotional as well as physical pain of my circumstance as Jesus hands me a tissue to blow my nose. I hug up to God a little closer and lay my head back down on His shoulder as He raises His right hand up.

He pats my back with His left hand and then gently rubs my back, this feels so comforting b/c touch is a human need. Mind you, I'm imagining this but it has comforted me more times than I can count. It is how I cope with my struggles and this is what He says about what He is holding in His right hand. "Sweetheart I know your pain is tremendous right now. I'm so glad you came to me to help you through it. Look here, I hold the universe right here in the palm of my hand. Take a closer look at your pain...see in a matter of God sized moments I can take it and make your world all over again. I have this 'lil problem' under control and I'm not going to allow anything to hurt my precious child. I know you believe me b/c you came to me. Billie Jean, you are precious to me and I made you special for a reason. Keep your eyes focused on my Son and I'm going to make this struggle a blessing one day, I promise. I love you. Now get some rest and you'll feel better when you wake up."

I have an excellent imagination BUT this is not my imagination b/c I would go to God this way with my 'problems' and heartaches and disappointments. He has never failed me when I've crawled up in His lap and cried. He has always stroked my back and helped comfort me with words similar to this. We have to stop making God small and realize how truly BIG He is! I challenge you to 'crawl up in God's lap' the next time a struggle has you in an emotional pit. God can love up and hug up on you better than any earthly affection.