The place I call HOME...is now down by the river.

Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

I've gone to the public library in Memphis and started researching the history of the city. I really enjoy research and this has been quite interesting so far. Did you know the first name given to Memphis was "Fort Assumption" by the French? I had the research written down but I've misplaced it for now.

I'm sure there have been many assumptions about the reasons why I've chosen what I've decided for my life. I truly have sought my Lord's plan for me in every choice I've made this year. I know God has brought me to the place I'm at now and He will continue to show me His ways for my life in the following months. I have to show Him my faithfulness and never doubt any decision He leads me to make. Doubt is one way to make a circumstance in your life complete and total chaos. I'm at peace with my choices and I'm super excited to be able to spend more time with my mother. Who by the way, was my best friend at one time in my life. I've not lived with my mother since I was a little girl and this is bittersweet, even at 34 years old, I enjoy my mother's company, my mother's advice, and just knowing she's in the room down the hallway makes me feel safe. Yes, even at 34YO, I have a need to feel safe.

This journey will be exciting but I'm well aware of the obstacles and the need for independence that I have may cause problems. It hasn't so far but I have to remind myself that I'm in someone else's home and they are being very cordial. I'm head strong and the Jack Russell terriers my mother has as part of her family do not get along very well with ANYONE. So it's a good thing that I come home to my hometown ALOT and I stay gone from the house quite a bit.

I need to get to sleep, I've got an early day tomorrow. We finish taking everything out of my house in McKenzie tomorrow and Friday. I can't believe I will no longer have a place to call 'home' in my hometown after this weekend. I'm surprisingly okay with that. I've got my family to call home and my children to keep me always coming back to what I call home.